ShyQueen76

As many of u know from reading my blogs my marriage can be bipolar. We have high highs and very low lows so we decided to see someone to help a bit on Saturday mornings from 9-12 (30 minute drive each way). I am excited but I am so blue at the same time since Saturday is my heavy workout days 90 minutes. On that note I was shocked the scale actually went up this morning after staying on points and sweating like a piggy for 90 minutes I mean I was seriously dripping. I just can’t believe it and I was only 1 pound away from my mini goal and the chance to get some new workout clothes. Yikes. This journey like life can seriously wear you out. I have seen changes in me my shoulder blades are popping out from under the fat, my boobs are firming up, my legs have a gap between my thighs, my ankles are smaller, my feet toned. But the weight is not dropping. I am not losing hope. I love the gym and have to confess not to make an idol of it because although I love food I am actually enjoying the gym more. I think about going and miss it when I need to be at home. I refuse to make it an idol but man I could cry how much I am blessed to have the gym. Sure I miss the woods and fresh air but I love the feeing of sweat running down my back oh that is another thing I can feel my spine. That is so special to me. I am not lulu I am just so happy to take care of my temple.

So I will need to work harder on the treadmill and weights and use my time wisely in the gym to work harder to get the results with less time but I will make it. The leaves are all at peak here in VT that means time of change. In the winter our bodies naturally want to gain weight to store if there is a shortage of food. I need to renew my mind to know that I don’t need the excess and need to balance all in my life not just food but kids, time with God, time with hubby and meeting my personal goals.